Fear of Diving In

By · Tuesday, November 15th, 2011

Sometimes you have to do the thing that scares you and just jump into the deep end of the pool.

I remember being a kid and wanting to jump off the high diving board at the local pool — it looked like so much fun but I wondered if I would ever have the courage to do it.  Finally I got up the courage to give it a try.  The first step was to simply go stand in line.  The line got shorter and shorter and then it was my turn to climb the ladder.  That ladder seemed to go on and on, climbing higher and higher.  Funny, it didn’t look nearly as high from down on the ground.

Then I was standing on the end of the diving board and I was sure that everyone at the pool was looking at me.  I was petrified to jump … did I mention that I’m afraid of heights?  But it was even more scary to think about taking the “walk of shame” back down the ladder.  So I did the thing that scared me — I jumped.

And I didn’t die!  See, I grew up and am a grandmother now so I obviously didn’t die when my 10 year old self stepped off the edge of the board and jumped right into the deep end.  I didn’t die, but I remember that I wasn’t particularly graceful and the water stung a bit when I hit … but I DIDN’T DIE!

So I’ve been working with authors for a few years now.  It looks like so much fun when I see their pride in finishing up a manuscript or getting that first copy of their book in hand. I’ve been toying with the idea of writing a book myself and I feel like I’m a kid again standing in line to go off the high diving board.

I’ve recently been given the opportunity to participate in a book that is right up my alley — a book about using authorship to advance your business.  And I said yes.  So I’ve been climbing the ladder the last few days.  So now I’m standing on the edge of the diving board of authorship.  It took a lot of courage to climb that ladder as I’ve told some people I’m going to do it (and now I’m telling all of you!).  It may not be literary genius and I’ll be depending on a good editor like I depended on the lifeguards that day at the pool but I’m going to jump!

So wish me luck — I’m expecting that I won’t die.

Is there a project you want to undertake that scares you?  Feel free to use the comments to declare your intention and climb the ladder yourself.


Awesome, Janica! I can relate to so much of this, including the fear of the high dive. It certainly does look much higher from on the board than the edge of the pool.

I look forward to hearing how this journey unfolds for you. Please do stay in touch! :)


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